零九年應該係人生入面最複雜既一年。延續了零八下半年既風波s，呢一年真係忙到唔知點。

見識左好多，認識左好多，啟發都多左好多。

諗起我最唔中意既人講過一句：大你一年，可以見識多你好多。到今日終於體會到。雖然到今時今日都仲好唔中意佢。

可以話係又一個覺醒之年。

今年體會最深既，就係我唔可以一味樂觀同 Easy Going, 有時候要兵行險著，要執著，同埋要技巧咁展示自己既陰暗面。

除夕同一個大學同學，男仔，去老蘭倒數。一破一直以來的情況。感覺新鮮，而且都好正！呢個可能就係 SOSC堂學到「20歲後會結識更多同性朋友」既要訣。

今年都可算係國際年，一年出香港四次。。。加上外地到訪既同出外交流既朋友所送既野，仲有自己買比自己既，加加埋埋都有十幾件由五六個地方黎既野！同食物！呢個最緊要。

Anyway，期望今年可以如願以償，再次消失於香港。哈哈！同埋考好最後一個 Sem!

Big Fish 大魚奇緣 和 Once 一奏傾情 是這個星期我在課餘時看的電影。兩套題材和手法都很不相同的電影，竟有這麼相似的地方。兩套都有奧斯卡的獎，我覺得真的很值！

Big Fish 讓我想了很多。父親過了一個有一點精彩的人生，運用一點的想像力，幻化成一部部充滿戲劇性的故事。重點不在兒子如何學會欣賞和接受父親的一套，在於父親如何改寫故事。

純綷的加油添醋，精彩是可能會有了，但總不及電影內的故事如此虛幻又實在，可以讓你相信一些只在童話中才發生的事。關鍵在於適當地融入自己的思維和巧妙地運用借代。

大魚到底代表了什麼？父親年輕時走到 Spectre 的目的是什麼？這些種種在電影中都沒提及過。然而這些都是故事的中心，亦是現實中出現發生過的事物被巧妙地塑成。正正因為作家有這個天份將現實翻譯成虛幻，才會寫得出好的小說。

又，片中提過 A man has told too many stories that, he finally becomes the story. 好的故事能令說故事的人都能信以為真。好的故事能推動人去達成故事中的目標。讓自己成為故事裡的人物，往往能改變對世界的眼光和理想。

很感動的電影，到後段要不斷暫停休息，才不致於大庭廣眾下流淚。真太易哭了，我。

Amused by my English. Couldn't imagine that I could speak that well until I had the sharing session about WATUSA.... Really, after a year of travelling (x5 times) My English and Mandarin improved increditably much! Judged by friends known last summer. So no more E in English Oral I hope haha~

Touched by my girlfriend's words. Never a person trust me so deep and would wait for me. Very alike to the characters of the novel I am readin', everyone should know this story written by Jin Yung.

Chatted with a friend last night on the way home, suddenly realized that perspective of life is very important for one to decide his action. The way you see the world totally alter your feeling towards everything and your decision making. Yes, we are all ambitious!

I am so non-Hong Kong, I agree

Life is so relaxing when there is no need to sqeeze time for work~ But work is necessary for a healthy life unless it is too stressful. Happiness is found from the balance of entertainment, social life, work and rest. It is mental thing, not material.

I am so lucky to have that many chance to live this life~ Thank for the chances and support from my family and friends.

Heard from a movie, "Life is a playground, only you have forgotten what it is after grown up." Appreciation to everything of life is the key to enjoy it. Seeing the good side of good things, find out good things in even the worst event. Nothing can bring you down then.

Feeling good

The thought always resurface everytime when I am down. I am sick of it but I have to agree.

Sometimes I think I have given too much to the others, but oftenly I don't really want something back from them. I simply like to plan and donate so as to feel happiness from the good plans and the ones who enjoy them. Most of them are unseen by others. It takes me days to plot and research to secure a day's activity. No one ever know that. It cost me much to treat and transport the others. No one ever consider that. It is quite hurt when I have to organize, but actually I am completely out of the group. No one ever think of that. In deep I really wish someone would do this for me, for once. But this has never happened.

I started to feel sick of this in the last couple of years, when I realize that even the ones closest to me is also like that. Form that on, I learned to imitate how others did to me. At first it was quite frustrated as it was against my will. But I got used to that. Finally I got used to act like that. But the others started to complained me not giving enough to them.

OK... I became myself again, but I started to ask for return. People started to say I am selfish. What should I do? Maybe there is a great flaw in my philosophy of life, but I cannot think of a way to improve anymore. Sorry.

'Maybe they just forgot me...'
'Maybe they are closer to each other than to me......'
'Maybe I am destinied to be ignored in that way....'
'At least they are friendly to me.....'     
= daily excuse to myself

But when I am down, when I am sick, when I feel lonely, those excuses are useless...

Maybe people are used to be given but not to give.... Greed is born with us, we cannot help that. But please consider that the others are also greedy. Satisfy them sometimes.

Luckily I have met my current girlfriend that is so good to me. Luckily I am outta HK in a week and I can truely enjoy my time by myself and one of my best friend. Luckily I have learnt so many things that I can enjoy things by myself.

I am just a volunteer, I am not a saint. Give me a rest please.